For whoever wants to save their life will lose it, but whoever loses their life for me will find it. Jesus said that, but what did he mean? Oh crap, where is my life, it was here a minute ago? Well that could happen I suppose and does happen every day.
Warfare, natural disaster, death, can radically alter any life to the point the old one is no longer recognizable.
But Christ’s actual meaning is what can take us through all of life’s trauma’s without dropping a bead of worry sweat. What Christ is saying, now this is only me talking, so run it through your own heart before believing it or dis-believing it and deciding I am the devil.
James said God’s word is implanted, so before taking anything as the gospel, check with your own wise heart.
Anyway Christ is saying that any definition you have of yourself is false. Your true identity comes in your unity with him, and that identity is beyond any identity, because it has access to all that God has access too. So by hanging onto being Hobo John I am limiting myself in every way. That also may be why I have changed my name four times, just trying to lose myself you see.
Now Christ, as he demonstrated, was all about healing and love, so we must consider God is this way as well.
Now a lot of social workers, and other well meaning folks, make the mistake of thinking they know what is best for homeless people and end up doing a lot of stuff that don’t help heal anything; all that it does is keep the ego feeling good about itself.
Say if you are feeding the hungry and doing it out of pity or a sense of it is your duty as their superiors, they will understand that and treat you like everybody else they don’t trust.
They will lie to you, manipulate you, steal from you and work you for every last thing they can get from you. However, if you see and treat them as an equal they will understand this as well and over time will understand you are somebody they can trust. And maybe they have never trusted another living soul, and slowly but surely they get better. That is how Christ worked, seeing the scum of the other as human and worthy of God’s love.
Anyway enough about Hobo’s. How do you lose yourself? Well when does time disappear for you? Like you are doing something you love so much you completely lose track of time and any identity of yourself. For me I lose myself when I am writing, painting, playing with children, fishing talking to hobo’s, and being affectionate with my girlfriend.
See when you lose yourself in the joy of things, well that is Christ telling you what he wants you to do for him, that is why he makes it so dam joyful. But if you think, well I can’t play the clarinet because I am a blue collar man; that is you trying to save your life, in other words your identity, and you end up losing the joy Christ designed for you.
Or if you say you can’t be a carpenter because you are a woman and your daddy’s rich and your mamma’s good looking, so you forgo the carpentry and become a runway model even though you hate it, that is once again you trying to save your life, your identity, instead of losing it.
So my point is; do what brings you joy, what takes you out of time and out of your identity, and before you know it you will be walking through the kingdom of heaven right here on earth and seeing the whole world through God’s eyes, and everything you see becomes beautiful.
Hobo John put it like this with a metaphysics: Want to find yourself? be a stranger to yourself. See how I refer to myself in the third person there, it is a mind trick.
Peace to you folks, I love you with everything that I have. Why not send me a friend request on facebook. If you want to read more of my stories push on the name Hobo John at the top of this article.
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